loop

Two friends of mine have challenged me, in different ways, to start looking at what I give to others, and to start giving it to myself.

In therapy, we talked a lot about taking care of others, of feeling compelled to do so. I wonder how many others have this experience. Are taught this skill. Pass it along.

This… looping of that care back onto myself… such an easy habit that I want to engage it again and again. It feels good to feel good.

Negative habits are so hard to break. So hard to notice until you’re 2 minutes in. So hard to put the brakes on, at first.

This habit — I want to keep it going. I want to soak myself in what I’ve given to other people.

If I make other people feel half as good about themselves as I am making myself feel right now, well, now I know why people want to be around me.

This is powerful, heady stuff.